I am officially spoiled by DK and CC. ^_^

So I can say, the fantasy thing I had like 2 journals ago was taken care of beautifully by DK and CC. I’m going on the “ask and you shall receive” frame of thought which has been proven true my entire life as long as what you are asking for is in reason. DK and CC truly wore my tush out and it was absolutely wonderful being with them. ^_^

Dinner…

Dinner was fun. I got there about five in the afternoon after leaving my house three times because I kept forgetting little things including my phone. I was thinking about the play date all day long and was more than excited. As a plus, I was going to make Panang curry, jasmine rice and peas for dinner with Thai tea. CC stayed in the kitchen with me while I cooked and we got to talk about little things and such. It was nice and I was letting her taste things and smell them as I finished them. I got to meet DK’s dogs who are all so adorably cute and very friendly. While I let the chicken marinate in the sauce some, I got to measure CC for me to fix her skirt and fixed a button on DK’s shorts for him. I had brought my sewing kit so I could do it while the food finished up. After I got done and before True Blood, I made us all plates and trust me, we ate very good. DK and CC went back for seconds on things, but I always only eat one plate majority of time as I never eat much anyway. When we finished and everything was put away, we moved to the play room.

Cuffs, rope and spanking…

It was exactly that. First, I was cuffed with a collar placed on me for the night by CC which was a first for me. Any previous play, I had been only cuffed at my wrists and ankles with a blind fold with anyone. That was the first time anyone had placed a collar on me even for play. Its had to explain the feelings I had about it being there. When it was placed and buckled, I felt my emotion change quickly. I was nervous some from the feeling it gave me, but it felt right at the same time. Like as I sat and waited, a sense of peace kind of swept over me. As we played, the only real discomfort I had was when I was tied to the bench and was standing while I lay on my stomach, which was mostly the tummy area that had the discomfort. Besides that, it was a great night. I can’t tell you when I slipped under in to subspace, but I flew hard that night. I actually cried that night as I was spanked until my cheeks were a burning numb and I shook. I remember something wet and cool on my skin then I was spanked again making the sting more. After what felt like forever as I was feeling so much and was seriously floating at this point, it stopped and I just laid there in bliss. I moaned softly at the touch on my back and there was moaning outside of my own. I was able to come down some as I lay there and then I felt stimulation again against my skin and I floated away again. Then next thing I can remember was buzzing along my lips and clit, my body shaking once more and moaning as I came. I can’t remember much after that point other than waking up, wrapped in a blanket on a pillow sleepily and hearing voices and then other sounds before rolling back over and passing out.

The next morning…

I woke up the next morning and after getting my head together enough, I went into the room with CC and curled under her. We watched TV as I finally got back down from my headspace that lasted through the night. I had forgotten that I still had on everything from the cuffs to the collar including the blindfold in my hair at that point. Eventually, I took them off and CC chuckled at me some for still having them on. It was nice cuddling under her before we finally got up for food. We came back and CC hit the shower as I gathered my things some so that I could be ready to leave when she left as well. When she got back, we cuddled again as we watched TV once more but she held me closer this time. Now I will say she totally started it and and will say I happily didn’t mind. I will just say we had some time to get to know each other a little better and leave it at that. When I finally made it home, I was happily tired and content from the entire weekend of fun.

After thoughts on the whole weekend…

AMAZING! Ok, I wasn’t expecting the weekend to be so full of bliss! Friday night has me floating so high as it was all subspace involved there as that tends to happen at The Mark. Sunday evening seemed more of a mix of subspace and some slavespace for me. I had a mixture of emotions and thoughts. I am so appreciative of DK and CC for being so amazing and great with me. I know I am not the most advanced person in the scene, but they are patient when playing with me. I feel so comfortable learning from them and playing with them as well. With them, I have built up more tolerance for pain and gotten to experience a few new things as well. It’s honestly nice and I couldn’t have imagine myself where I am now in scene a year ago. Kind of makes me smile with a happy tear at all the great people I have met and get to truly be myself around. I honestly cant wait to see what is to come from this point forward.

I’m officially feeling spoiled at the moment. ^_^ I really can hardly explain how awesome I feel to be active and be able to play with awesome people including being at an amazing establishment that allowed me to make all the great friends I have now.

Spanko Party Deux…

Though it was not as big a crowd as the 1st Spanko Party, it was fun for those of us who were there. I think the crowd was effected by The Mark opening at regular times again starting that night and the class the next day on whips. However, even though we had a small crowd for the night, oh did we have fun. Now I will say this ahead of time to get it out of my system; the music that night was not to par. Spanish guitar is great for outside the gallery but inside, there was a need for something with more beat. I kind of kick myself for not remembering my mix that I had planned to burn and give to The Mark that night and totally forgot it at home. Besides the music though for me, it was a very good night. Since DK had spoken with me earlier that week, we had made plans to play that night after midnight when he was more so free to do so. I mingled and more so hung out at the beginning of the night until it was time to play. Later, I found out it would be more so a spankorama, which comprised of two tops and three bottoms. Since it was more of a group session, I had not expected myself to go as deep as I did so I was quite surprised. We lined up the benches in a triangle somewhat and we got naked for DK and MsL, laying a blanket over the benches before we positioned ourselves on them.

Now I must take a moment to express this; Since I saw MsL play when I first came to The Mark, I wondered what it would be like to play with her. She enthralls a sense of excitement and awesome scariness as she is a Domme and rightfully so. Her presence is just like that and it’s always a great thing to watch her. To have a chance to play even partially with her sent chills up my spine as she was known (and I have seen with my own eyes) to have a heavier touch with or without anything in her hands. I wasn’t sure what to expect as I was afraid I would be too sore from Friday to play with DK and CC on Sunday if a hard bruise was made. However, I am happy to report she worked with DK awesomely well and made for a very deep experience for me.

Now DK warmed me up first. From his warm up, I actually expected to have good, but not a really intense spanking play especially since it was three of us and two of them. I was definitely wrong to think that as I forgot that the stronger control I feel, the deeper and quicker I will slip into subspace. My number one kink is D/s so it makes sense for myself to submit quicker. DK only stayed on me for a moment before I felt MsL’s hand and nails on my skin. Now she spanked me a few times and it was no warm up, but I liked it. Her hand made my cheeks sting and oh did I wiggle and move. She told me to stop moving away and hold still, which I complied quickly. I honestly loved the control even when some of the spanks were quite stingy. Then she would run her nails across my cheeks and I would moan instantly. It felt like going in circles of pain then pleasure over and over again. I was actually grateful that DK had came back over to me and hit my cheeks with the wooden spatula. If he hadn’t, I probably would have fell then. When I say fall, I truly mean it. MsL had pushed me very far and it was like someone pushed me off a cliff with no way of catching anything to stop it. I was happy that DK kind of caught me at the last moment and pulled me back. It was like he pulled me back on the cliff and made sure I was ready to really go over before leaning me back letting me slip down gently at the feel of paddles again.

As the switch up of tops happened once more, I was able to float gently down for a moment before MsL came back over to me. I went from floating down to falling again after she gave me “thuds” on my cheeks and ran her nails over me once more. My head rocked back and forth with her rhythm as I slipped away into deep space. I remember MsL whispering in my ear and I smiled. She asked me to look at her and I did until my head spun in pleasure as she would run her nails along me again. She occasionally teased my nipple through my bra and made me moan louder then I would feel another thuddy swat. I felt like I was a moaning heap on that bench barely conscious and I wanted to feel DK again. As soon as I felt his rhythm of paddling against me, I smiled so much. It was soothing and wonderful. With him, I totally let go and just let myself finally be taken over by the endorphins running through my veins. 

I don’t believe I have ever been so deep before in my life. I was there and was totally gone. I couldn’t feel my body for a long time, it just tingled. Even as I was able to open my eyes some, I could barely keep them open and it was like I was looking through someone else’s eyes. My body moved on its own and all I could do was watch through the small glances of blurry eyes, piecing bits together on how to control my own body again. The only thing I could barely feel in all of it was the warmth of DK. It was comforting and lead me back to myself again in a sense. I remember moving and everything jumbled. I felt cold and then trapped in myself then I cried. I couldn’t help the tears as I could barely do anything else. I wanted to apologize for going so far, for being so helpless, for just idk… I cried until DK came back and then teared more so afterwards for a good while. I had dropped and all I could do was lay there with still no strength, tearing at my own frustration. I wanted to sit up and move and talk, but it was still only with help could I move. I could only do any of it with help and I felt shy and cold afterwards kind of like a kid. While laying in the open area on M (who had played as well on my left but recovered a lot quicker than myself), I regained most of me to be functional and coherent again. When DK was able to come over again to check on me, I was talking and moving well from my perspective at the moment, but to make sure we went for breakfast afterwards. It was nice and the hot chocolate I had was great at warming back up. It was nice to talk with DK as well. I noticed a little bit of stagger still in my voice and could tell I was still not entirely back down from subspace. When I drove home, the lightest turns and lane changes made me a little light headed, but I am happy to say I made it home very much safety and literally floated off to sleep.

After thoughts…

Well unfortunately, those will have to wait. I decided to go ahead and write this particular journal the day after to give myself the room I will need for tomorrow. I have a fun evening planned with DK and CC as I will get to cook for them and then I get to be double topped. I’m looking forward to it and will actually post two more journals pertaining to this weekend, the third being the after thoughts of the entire weekend together. Though I will say this one thing I noticed; I go deeper when less warm up is done, but I can go longer when it is. Interesting development I’ve found and I’m not sure which one I would prefer and even wonder if a middle ground can be achieved. Though since Friday had me worked up quite a bit, I’m sure a warm up would be better appreciated than getting into it too soon. Until next time! ^_^

The last spanking session that I had gave me the inspiration to come up with a playlist of my own for sessions. Also with all that I have heard at The Mark and that session, I wanted to give some music options that are a little more geared for a younger crowd but can appreciated by an older crowd as well. The most important being the head space of those involved to help them get to where they need to be. This is a rough draft of songs that work well together and give different levels of beats so that the rhythm of everything can vary within the session. Hope everyone enjoys it! ^_^

BDSM Playlist:

Asphyxiate (Interface Remix) 6:14 Genitorturers Machine Love

Bad Romance 4:55 Lady Gaga The Fame Monster [Deluxe Edition] Disc 1

Bring Me to Life 3:57 Evanescence Fallen

Closer 6:13 Nine Inch Nails

Cum Junkie 3:57 Genitorturers Blackheart Revolution

Disturbia 3:59 Rihanna Good Girl Gone Bad: Reloaded

Fuck U Silly 2:58 Nicki Minaj Nicki Minaj-Barbie World (The Mixtape)

Get Some   3:23 Lykke Li Wounded Rhymes

Hella Good 4:03 No Doubt Rock Steady

I Follow Rivers  3:49 Lykke Li Wounded Rhymes

I Like It Rough 3:22 Lady GaGa The Fame

Judas 4:09 Lady Gaga Born This Way

Papercut 3:07 Linkin Park Hybrid Theory Alternative & Punk

Pleasure In Restraint 6:51 Genitorturers 120 Days Of Genitorture

Poker Face 3:57 Lady GaGa The Fame

S&M 4:04 Rihanna Loud

Strict Machine 3:51 Goldfrapp Black Cherry

Tainted love 3:20 Marilyn Manson The golden age of grotesque

Take Over Control (Radio Edit) 4:13 Afrojack Ft. Eva simons Take Over Control - Single

Taking Over Me 3:50 Evanescence Fallen

Teeth 3:41 Lady Gaga The Fame Monster [Deluxe Edition] Disc 1

Touch Myself (Dave Ogilvie & Scott Humphrey Mix) 3:22 Genitorturers Machine Love

With You 3:34 Linkin Park Hybrid Theory

I emotionally feel on top of the world right now as I bottom and submit in it contently. In three weeks time, I have had the pleasure of having two spanking sessions and a flogging session. ^_^

The flogging session I had a weekend or so ago was well interesting to say the least. It was a good session, but it felt different. For some reason, it didn’t have the sparkle that it had months ago. It wasn’t anything unusual from what I had done before with S&S. Though internally, it felt like something was missing. Like a bit of connection was loss over the months, which saddens me a little to think about that. I floated yes, but I really wonder how well it went for S&S. Maybe it was because it was a busy night for them, but alas I don’t know. I will see what happens with that.

Now my second play session with DK was above awesome for me. It was a great mix of pain and pleasure, which had me floating something above awesome. It was an amazing time for me, really, it truly was and I want to thank DK for such an enjoyable time. The only thing I could not take was the flogger and more so because it was stinging me on my right side and had to stop it. Everything else was enjoyable to feel. I love biting and the clamps were a great asset to the session. Next time though, I know I need to stretch and massage my legs after a session like that cause my muscles will tense hard and will be sore for days if I don’t. The second day after I dropped pretty bad, more so than the first time I played with DK. I realized that I tend to drop to be very much happy the first 24 hours and the next 24 hours, I subdrop. That being said, I know I should come up with a plan to prepare myself for when it happens better. By the next play session, I plan to have this together for sure.

After the session with DK and I woke up, we talked and he brought up the subject of fisting. It kind of made me nervous to hear him say it, no lie. Mainly from the point of me never being analing fisted before. In college, I had an experience where I was vaginally fisted out of pure curiousity of the guy I was with and he wanted to see how many fingers he could get into me. However, anally being fisted is a totally different hole that is not as easy to stretch. Now I will say, I love anal. It feels so great and I honestly wish it would get more attention than my vagina at times. So the thought of anal fisting doesn’t scare me at all, but I am hesitant some of course. I have been fingered in my ass before with two fingers and had anal with someone who was endowed with a twelce inches length and two inches width (which was not easy but oh did it feel OMG amazing). That being said, I want to try it and experience it more than my nerves hesitate me. I may or may not be able to do it, but I will at least be able to say I tried. I am looking into butt plugs right now to see if I can find one that would possibly help in that aspect as well for future use.

On a separate note, on Saturday it was the Back-to-School themed party at The Mark! I made a skirt for it and got to cuddle all night then got to eat great food with everyone afterwards. I saw DK and his partner CC playing so I didn’t get to talk to them until they were done. CC had the cutest skirt on that DK told me she had ordered for that night. I talked to them and offered to make them dinner one day before a session. I think it would be fun and awesome as well while letting me get into my submission ahead of time. 

After thoughts on it all and random things in my head…

I kind of wonder how it would be to add a blindfold and then restraints to a spanking session.

***FANTASY MOMENT*** I can almost imagine serving that evening in my apron in such then laying down a bit to let the food digest, then waking up with my arms restrained behind my back and blindfolded. Then I would lay there in silence until heard footsteps and then hands pulling me up, then placing me on a bench and restraining me on it as well. I would be able to hear two people in whispering but not knowing what they say. Then I would hear a voice in my ear saying something of an imperfection in the meal I made or the way I dressed that evening, telling me I was to be punished for it and I would learn my lesson by feeling it on my skin that night… To feel chills go down my spine, knowing of the delicious pain and pleasure I would endure as I was double topped that night. ***END FANTASY***

Mmm… That would be a fine fantasy to think of for possible future play. I know it can’t be now cause with BDSM, it’s better to go slower and take your time. Though it is a very sweet thought to have in your head to imagine! ^_~ Seriously though, to add aspects of a blindfold and restraints in future sessions would be nice to look into. I close my eyes anyway! ^_^

And I truly loved it. I honestly want to thank DK for such a wonderful experience.

Now since it’s been a decent minute since I’ve had the chance to do a journal entry, I believe a recap of the past few months are in order here.

The Mark…

This place has found it’s way into my heart as well as the amazing people I’ve met and all the new amazing friends that I’ve been making. The first time I had met everyone was at the monthly munch and it was movie night as well. The Mark is like the biggest playground a kid can imagine! When I walked into the gallery, I was in love I swear cause it has so many different things to play with and enjoy. The friends that I’ve made there are the coolest most awesome people ever. The different events have been a blast to attend like game night or the slave auction. I even got up for bidding and got sold as a flogging bottom and to give a massage. It’s truly been an experience with them and I always feel comfortable being there.

Building up to courage…

Now I’m not shy when I finally get comfortable in my environment, but I am not one to jump into trying any and everything at whim. I have to think about it first. Now since I have joined the Mark, I have had the privilege to see so many different types of play. I have see fire play, needle play, impact play, pet play, suspension with rope, saran wrap and hooks, little play and so much more! I’m in awe of the great people I have met, like seriously. I did find out that I may not be one much for little play, but pet play I have found a new fondness for. I tried needle play and found out that it sadly doesn’t do a thing for me. I don’t wince or get excited at all. It honestly didn’t even hurt pass a pinch, which part of me kind of hoped I would react and was a little disappointed at my findings. What led to my first official play date at the Mark, was the spanking party. Now of course I have had my ass slapped while during intercourse, but it’s not the same. For this I will use the initials DK as it was he who introduced me to the wonderful paddles and whom I had my play date with. That night, with my new amazing friend W, had some what of a double paddling going on in the front of the club. She was on the bench beside me since the gallery was full of spanking sessions at the moment. We were literally cracking up and laughing the entire time with DK spanking me and another top spanking her. The honestly funniest moment was when she was getting hit with a duster and the plastic was on as well still. I laughed so hard and had a great amazing time that night. I felt floaty from that experience with the mix of pleasure, pain and laughter. It was honestly nice. I was happy to arrange an actual play session with DK.

My first play date at the Mark…

This night happen to be Uniform Night at the Mark. I wanted to prepare something extra nice for the night since my uniform that night would be a simple maid outfit. I made fishnet stocking out of rope and they looked awesome. The garter part I need to work on, but it was mostly covered by my petticoat that I wore under the Hello Kitty apron I made. I got there late after work, but before the doors closed for the night. DK was already there and it wasn’t long after I had said hi to everyone and gaves hugs that he was ready for me. I took everything off other than my cuffs, the rope and my thong that he requested I wear. He laid a blanket over the leather covered bench then went to get me some water for later. I looked at the paddles a moment and took s few deep breaths as I was nervous. I can honestly say I was more nervous about myself than DK. Would I respond totally or just some or what? DK had said before that he was able to get good vibes off of me. I wasn’t completely sure if it was just that I’m naturally sensitive to touch or if I really had a kink for paddling. The spanking party only gave me enough information about myself that I knew I liked it.

It took a few breaths and laying on the bench when DK got back for me to relax. I listened to the music and calmed as DK prepared my skin with light taps and rubs. I decided to lay there and enjoy as I knew my cheeks would be red soon enough. As he started to begin with paddles, it was ok. I think I was relaxed a little much that it didn’t push me far at all with the first couple of rounds of swats. They felt like they happened and I was there. I felt like my cheeks were getting massaged and my back as well some. I loved the bamboo as it pitter pattered like rain on my skin and I relaxed even more. I loved alot of the paddles against my skin. Some of them hurt more, but it turned me on so I didn’t mind it at all. When DK would work me up and then hold the rope around my waist to keep me in place, it pushed me more to the edge and I didn’t expect it. It was a satisfying mix of sensations of pleasure and pain with control and it turned  me on. I moaned and wiggled and shook. I got lost in my own world some on that bench as I drifted between being there and not. I could see subspace, but I wanted to stay and feel all of it. I also stayed because I didn’t want to leave DK there by himself being it was the first time we really played. Thus I gripped onto the bench as much as I could mostly because I felt I would float away if I didn’t. After the first full work up of sensation and swats, the rest became a soft blur of pleasure and content pain. I laid there afters breathing heavily as DK rubbed my back and gave me water.

As I lay there, I can honestly say I wanted to feel more and keep going further, but it was best not to the time. My stockings were completely at my knees and DK covered me with a blanket. I’m not quite how long the session actually went for or how long I lay there on the bench before I was ready to sit up. DK brought a chair behind me and I pretty much slid off the bench and laid my head back on it, still in a daze. I finally remembered that he had another spanking to give and decided to move so that he could ready himself. I removed my rope from around me and watched his next scene start. It wasn’t until I heard sounds of spanking again in the gallery that I think I slipped under some. I was wrapped up in the blankets cause I felt like I was freezing and closed my eyes, then opened them to see DK and his hand on my shoulder, asking if I was ok. We walked me back to the couch in the gallery to warm up and then cuddled with W into the rest of the night and came back fully with the help of cake, hot chocolate and cuddles. I was giddy for the rest of the evening and fell asleep smoothly that night.

After thoughts…

I look forward to my next spanking session and hope to go on a bit longer next. I felt for it to be our first actual play date, it was rather nice. I can honestly say I have a more established kink for pain now, but I still don’t like stingy, compared to thuddy. This time around, instead of my tush being red and feeling it for days, I only felt this for a day and a half. I think my skin is learning and building up tolerance as I go and I’m quite proud of that. I was still a little floaty and happy the day after my session. Monday wasn’t the best but was not totally bad. I dropped some and teared and cried a little the whole day, but by that evening I was me again. I spoke to DK on Monday as he was checking up on me. I told him of course and he told me to call him next time it happens and I drop. Being that it had been a minute since I had a real session, I had forgotten to remember to communicate properly some. I can’t help but smile to myself as I get to get back into the groove of doing so hopefully. All and all I will have to say that I’m growing more and more as I learn about myself in the BDSM scene. I know I have a long way to go but I am patiently eager to see what the future holds. ^_^